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Ahoy there! I am Melissa (though I don't tend to go by my first name online). Rae is a common nickname for me. Whatever mish-mash of my username is fine, too, if that's easiest for folks. I'll skip the rambling intro (for now) and just jump in with a question! I know shamanism as a calling often leads folks to working as a healer in some capacity. It seems practical (inevitable?) to integrate the shamanic into whatever work one does professionally. For people who work in "real world" fields of health and wellness, it seems pretty obvious how the healing might carry over. But I am curious how this might manifest for a professional artist (like me)? I like the idea …

Hi. I struggle with recurring "psychosis". I have these recurring delusions (or at least i hope they are delusions). In these episodes i end up feeling like I am evil. It's a very complex and nuanced experience. The world around me feels very fake yet i am responsible for the suffering in it because that is apparently real somehow. It feels like i chose this life in the bardos that preceded this life... with ill intent. It's a very unassuming incarnation i've taken on. i am not overtly hurting other people but my lifestyle surely creates suffering on this planet. But that lack of overt wrong doings is used against me when the "condemnation narrative" as i call it sinks it…

I will begin by explaining my primary struggle: Sometimes (about once a week on average) I am overwhelmed by a solipsistic waking nightmare in which i am the only conscious entity and all the suffering in the world is my fault. It happens mostly in public places but sometimes it strikes at home. When i am hit with it I feel evil and pathetic. In it I am being given a choice. Accept the "knowing" that I am evil and punish myself or opt out of remembering my own lowliness and inherit a greater punishment. The idea behind it is that by sustaining my existence i am sustaining the horrors of this world. As an American i am dependent upon fossil fuels and plastic packaging…

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Greetings, my fellow seekers of truth and meaning. Forgive me, this is a long introduction. I'm new here.. obviously. I am not new to energies and visions. I am only just now coming to understand them. I met a very knowledgeable one in the a.m. hours of March 9th on Omegle who directed me here as well as offered other great and useful tidbits of experience. If you are out there... this stranger thanks you. I am 37 years of this manifestation of awareness. I've always had a deep connection of the earth and natural things of it. I am drawn to obsidian rather strongly. Only recently did I give into this and acquire a few pieces and start practicing in the art of he…

"Long is the way and hard, that out of Hell leads up to light." -John Milton (Disclaimer - There is no use of, either literal or implied, drugs or violent acts herewithin this story. This story is being shared in a safe space where we Shamans are not judged, and so I will not invade that with anything that may trigger anyone else. In addition, although I do not follow the same path as many here; some being healers, some dreamers, some seekers or makers, mine is my own. But who are we if not open minded? I speak with spirits and follow Northern traditions.) Two months ago I took a vacation from the desert here in Colorado to the Northwestern coast of Ca…

Something I have observed over the years is that when I have a profound experience, I have to be very careful about how I share the story of it to other people. Some stories told just the right way in the right context to the right folks feel like I've actually shared the story without diminishing it. But other stories, when I share them, seem to lose their potency for me on a personal level. I find myself wondering if other folks experience this and why such a thing occurs?

Hi. This post is bound to meander across several subjects. So when I journey I tend to envision myself as very very small. Like, the size of my thumb. And as one would in a third person video game. That's my "avatar" so to speak. It's not as simple as that but that's the essential essence. So I'm wondering if that's common. It lends to me a feeling of being immersed in a world larger than life. Yet there's also some degree of first person viewing at points. Like... I recently was trying to visit the upper world and there was a vine hanging down and it was covered in thorns. I just sat there until more vines appeared before me. So many vines. So many choices. Not just th…

I decided to directly recap a lot of trauma two days ago. I spent pretty much one whole 12 minute recap session focusing on trauma from childhood and adulthood bouts with psychosis. My friend had cautioned me against doing this kind of thing too soon, probably two or three years back. But I've been recapping daily for a long time and i reached a point where i was like... well my psychosis couldn't get much worse than it already is so i ought to try going directly after the really difficult memories. I had a huge breakthrough a few hours later. This may be in part due to the fact that i've been meditating a lot and eating better. So it's unclear what i was doing right. Now…

Hello All, I've been finding that a certain repetitive conflict. Emotionally I want this, but dreaming energy, the long stretch says otherwise, or rather the driving force is pushing me to do something else. I haven't been able to see this and put in words until today. Knowing where my emotions are being pushed and pulled, and knowing inside of me that there is something not quite syncing in with me at the same time. It's quite confusing. What I do now when this comes up, I try to sit and not move until I can have a better sense of both. I'm kinda leaning towards the knowing than the emotions. any thoughts?

Hello there May I aks some thing here? I am under 20 years old,and as some article said,I should not do recapitulation,as I didn't go thorugh much I've read a lot about spiritualism,especially the non-dual traditions,with which I agree,but only on an intelectual level.Is it possble somehow to go to a being level?(Cessation of 'I') Besides the 'outside the maker traditon' questions,can I ask some things? How exactly do you stalk yourself,and become able to have 'any personality'?I've read about it,but it seems like it's observing 'What you are responsible and what you're not responsible for',together with observing yourself.May I ask for a simpler explanation? Wh…

Hi, I am wondering if anyone can help me here. I have a neighbor who moved into the building next to mine sometimes in spring last year. He seems to be constantly at home (so am I) and our balconies are very close. He is always outside the building smoking or on the balcony smoking and often speaking on the telephone. I attempted to ignore him at first but I often keep my windows open and the cigarette smoke would come in and then I would know he is outside. I also often hear him speaking on the phone. In short I am starting to feel like a live with this guy. He also at some point started collecting the alcoholics in the neighborhood who then sometimes would smok…

It is becoming increasingly obvious to me that the reason humans are so predisposed to shame is intentional - both encoded within our genetic material and reinforced cultural, over time. Shame about our sexuality and desires has been instilled into us to keep us from knowing who we are. It is not just education and culture that should be blamed, but religion and faux spirituality as well - how often do we hear that what is base must be transcended for what is higher, or that individual attributes must be renounced to gain a deeper connection to the whole? Renoucing our nature as physical, human, animal beings does not, in fact, bring us any closer to true self…

Something I found that's powerful and important to say. Most people on this plane are being interfered with to various degrees by forces they are not aware of - that are either consciously or unconsciously detrimental toward their development. You should not be fearful of these; but rather, firmly, explicitly and confidently assert your right to your own energy, power and free will. http://www.sovereignki.com/declaration-of-non-consent

I was wondering if someone has ever heard of this and / or how to deal with it? Anyway, over the last few months, I've lost alot of weight and try as i might to gain it back, i can't. I've been to many doctors, and no physical reason for issue. So i started to meditate on it, and become aware in dreamtime when i feel uncomfy & wake up. What i began to see was when my solar plexus would react during sleep, i'd feel fear. Not reacting, I'd "scan" nearby, and often saw partial body of what looked like an alligator or crocodile. As i'd try to deal with it, it'd disappear or leave. It seemed to occur almost nightly, and ten i began to lose weight. I'd had something like th…

Hello folks. So I'm a bit of an expert on Hinduism and such. I collaborated with the motherfuckers at the Mi6 and SRC and shared some stuff which shouldn't have been shared, got driven crazy after, well, murdering someone. So in Hinduism (and Tibetan Buddhism), there is a system of Tattvas. Sattva is Goodness, Rajas is Passion, Tamas is Ignorance or Destruction. Shuddo Sattva is a special Tattva associated with Krishna Consciousness. Alright so here are the proper attributions of Shamanic Plants: Shuddo Sattva - Peyotl, San Pedro Sattva - The Sacred Mushroom, The Body of Christ Rajas - Ayahuasca, Yage Tamas - The Ganja

does anyone else see the energy connections between people or these black orb like things? i think what these might be are the ends? of negative cords between ppl. Anyone out there see the energy links, hooks, cords, etc?

I've read Makers don't really work with animal spirits. From reading and from my experience, I understand why one might choose not to. But I wonder, then, why there are several exercises that involve working with rocks. Why work with rock energy and not animal energy? I could extrapolate my own answers, but I'd like to know the reasoning of Maker folks, if people don't mind sharing.

A few other questions, put up here in case no one wants to read this novel of mine (no hard feelings. It's just that there's not really anywhere I can express myself about this. I did hold back believe it or not -.- ) What sorts of entities go about possessing people? And why, respectively? Are there any possessions not considered a negative thing, i.e. more symbiotic? Multiple souls sharing a body? I doubt it, but if so, how can you tell the difference? If I do indeed have a demon, it wishes harm only on those who 'deserve' it, i.e. rapists, pedophiles, etc. Still hateful, predatory emotions, but very specific. It feels protective and guardian-like, …

HI. One of the main things i've been seeking to heal in myself is recurring bouts of psychosis/ delusion/ feeling like i'm being condemned. These episodes recur approximately once every week or week and a half. It's a very disturbing and heavy experience. My friend told me that i should avoid recapitulating trauma until i'm really ready for it. I'm wondering though... if i avoid recapitulating the psychosis am I missing out on a return of energy that is essential to my being able to heal the psychosis? I know it's a really heavy and complicated energy to work with but i seem to have to endure it somewhat frequently anyway.

Hello Everyone, I would like to mention that I am new to this forum and I feel privileged to be amongst so many knowledgeable people. Just wanted to understand about the hardships and problem one might face in a lifetime. Is it cyclic or its all about the decision we have taken in our lives. Or is it something related to karma, Last few month have been very tough and I have observed that the cycle continues with me no matter what and how I try to improve things around me. This has been life's journey so far. What should be done differently ? thanks Ash

Hello everyone. Its more like a question then a discussion, so i don't know if its right thing to place a new topic here. If its not excuse me i am new here. So the thing is I made my dreamstone and it works really nice! But I am thinking about polishing (tumbling) it using jar with sand and water. The question is does the dreamstone's effect will be destroyed durning the process? Will I Have to repeat the dreamstone's creation process or will it become unusable? Thank you!

Hi everyone. I think that a loved one who has passed away has become one of my spirit guides. I believe he has tried to contact me on a psychic level, but my grief is getting in my way. Is anyone here able to do spirit guide readings? I wish I could confirm that I am seeing, hearing, and otherwise perceiving him correctly, but I just can't be sure without some type of external confirmation. If anyone receives a message or sign they could relay, I would gladly receive it with all due consideration - you may be helping more than you know. Thank you very much.

Hi, I wonder if anyone might be able to help. I went on a camping holiday to a remote beach about three years ago and decided to ‘Bear Grylls’ it and forage for my food and take a deck of Thoth tarot as I find it useful for meditating upon and accessing my subconscious mind. The beach is in Sussex and is three miles walk along the beach under the cliffs to get to when the tide is out. It’s remote, it’s picturesque and it’s incredibly beautiful. It’s also very magical. Ancient forest is on top of the cliffs and has come down as the cliffs have collapsed over the years, resulting in tiered woodland with natural springs feeding woodland pools and waterfalls which …

Ive only recapped 3 times and am seeing some rather aurprising results. Tonight will be my fourth and first nighttime (and cold lol) recap. I have a lot of negative energy coming at my family and a curse object I need to figure out what to do with. I feel a sense of urgency to do this obviously and am working on more than recapitulation although it is helping a great deal and in many ways, not the least of which is maintaining my energy. My question here is about herbs. What herbs have helped in what way for you guys. Of course I can get this information from other sources but in my experience the most legitimate work goes on here and I would value any advice. Even a sho…