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I will begin by explaining my primary struggle: Sometimes (about once a week on average) I am overwhelmed by a solipsistic waking nightmare in which i am the only conscious entity and all the suffering in the world is my fault. It happens mostly in public places but sometimes it strikes at home. When i am hit with it I feel evil and pathetic. In it I am being given a choice. Accept the "knowing" that I am evil and punish myself or opt out of remembering my own lowliness and inherit a greater punishment. The idea behind it is that by sustaining my existence i am sustaining the horrors of this world. As an American i am dependent upon fossil fuels and plastic packaging…

So recently I tried cleansing a soul fragment of mine by sending it to the galactic core for some clearing, but afterwards my left body started to feel a little empty and dissociative after asking my Higher Self to bring back the “piece”. I read online that the galactic core destroys souls, although im not sure if that counts souls embodying physical bodies. Is it gone forever? My other theory is that it could have been stolen by a negative entity? If that’s the case, are they easy to retrieve back?

Hello fellow shamanic practitioners, I have been journeying for about a year and experienced something rather strange last night during a short journey. I embarked on the journey with a very well defined intention/question and about 2/3 of the way through, I felt as if my body was literally overtaken by the spirit of an eagle. It may be important to say that Eagle is my power animal, but I have never before felt like I actually was the eagle in any kind of physical sense. In my trance state, it literally felt like the spirit of an eagle pressed into me and I then experienced having a beak and my actual human head began making subtle involuntary movements and I felt…

Hi, I'm new to Shamanism. Just beginning to go down that path as my meditation and life experiences have brought me there. Here's a tiny bit of background on me. -Used to get a lot of sleep paralysis with demonic entities. I always felt a bond with the shadow people and they never seemed to have intentions to hurt me. Even though they are fear incarnate and absolutely terrifying. -Bipolar Disorder has opened my mind up to new energy which I channel in meditation. It's part of how I keep my symptoms in check, and myself centered. -Recently my depression energy has been bringing intense darkness into my meditation and I began to feel the presence of enti…

I used to be able to journey easily ,i fell asleep once and since then I cannot journey anymore. what can i do?

Hello everyone, and welcome. I am new here and I may not be a Shaman perse, but I am familiar with what is Shamanism. I find Shamanism quite wonderful, but I consider myself Universal. Meaning, that I am One with The Universe as I know many of you are. Therefore since I am One with The Universe, I have no specific title, but I find Shamans to have great wisdom. I hope that one day you all would like to share your amazing Wisdom, as I know I would share mine. Have wonderful blessings!! and hope to engage with you all soon. I send my Highest Energy Vibe to this forum and the Shamans here. Thank you!!

I've already looked at another thread of a new guy, which had links mentioned to two pages on the contemporary shaman which I have read. But I guess this is more just a formal introduction, I've passed through the dark night of the soul, my state is non dual and unfortunately in the process have lost all sense of time and self. Have experimented with a few drugs only to simply stave off suicidal tendencies but not actually for any spiritual reasons. The life, the élan, of my existence is gone entirely. I'm in dire straits but not looking for, nor certainly expecting a quick fix. More so just guidance, I plead to be guided to some information on the subject, and pract…

Hello everyone! What would be your advice on recapping psychotic episodes? I always knew what they were back when I had them and could separate them from physical reality; they were vision-like I guess is the best way to describe them. So even though I'm pretty sure this will trigger them again, that doesn't worry me much; they weren't a threat to my or anyone elses physical safety. I haven't had them in years and I don't particularly want to return to listening to endless screaming choruses of disembodied suffering voices echoing through the great shadowy voids when all I'm trying to do is sleep, but I have a feeling I dropped the nightmarish stuff at the cost of a …

Greetings and blessings to all. I am an eclectic North European tradition Heathen. I have been using shamanic techniques for about 20 years. My wife and I are Asatru, meaning true to the old gods, and are both Goddess centered pagans. I am retired after 30 years in Criminal Justice and now spend my time preparing for my transition to the Other World. Please don't take that as a negative, I don't mean "suicidal", just an awareness of the need to die with no regrets. My main spiritual practice. now, is dream work. I have had numerous contacts with the Norse and Celtic Gods and Animal Powers. I send Thor and Freyr's Blessings to you all.

I have experienced at least one unwanted telepathy, and have transmitted accidentally as well. What does this mean from a shamanistic perspective? Any psychiatrist would call it psychosis, and I would have but for some evidence that showed up. I kind of want it to stop, but have little time at the moment to dedicate to anything new. I only experienced them once, if that matters.

So i have taken Spirals I and am in the middle of Quicksilver. There's so many exercises under my belt that i don't totally know what to do with them. Like... i don't know if it's enough to just do the exercise for each week and then drop it like a hot potato or if i should try to determine for myself what practices i should do... and then try to do a small handful of those exercises each day. Obviously the more we practice the more we learn but i come against resistance with the more challenging exercises. But maybe those are the ones i should be doing? Or maybe just the opposite. Do the ones that feel easy for me. I could ramble on but i'm sure this is enough to riff of…

HI. One of the main things i've been seeking to heal in myself is recurring bouts of psychosis/ delusion/ feeling like i'm being condemned. These episodes recur approximately once every week or week and a half. It's a very disturbing and heavy experience. My friend told me that i should avoid recapitulating trauma until i'm really ready for it. I'm wondering though... if i avoid recapitulating the psychosis am I missing out on a return of energy that is essential to my being able to heal the psychosis? I know it's a really heavy and complicated energy to work with but i seem to have to endure it somewhat frequently anyway.

I think the people of the ShamansCave will find this quote from Master Li Hongzhi (founder of Falun Dafa) from one of his Buddha Law Lectures very interesting: "The human mind is complex. I’ve spoken with you before about how a person’s brain is merely a processing plant. A person is born from his mother’s womb, with his parents’ flesh and blood, and then grows by consuming earthly foods. And at death, whether he’s buried in the earth or cremated, he turns to dust. The brain itself, strictly speaking, is not the origin of one’s thoughts. Don’t people have a soul? Doesn’t a person’s body also consist of a part that is at various microscopic layers and that is…

Hi again, I'm curious how you all realized that recapitulation was a life changing practice. Like... did you realize that it was changing your life while you were in the midst of a recapping session or did things just start to change in your life and you knew somehow that it was thanks to the practice. Or maybe a bit of both? My meditations are always super profound but recapping feels more subtle for me so i'm quite curious about why so many people swear by it. I've been doing it for approximately 20 days and am quite committed to it. I have very recently experienced a possible change in vocation/artistic focus. I was very used to working in the medium of nove…

Hi All, Two queries 1) While i was recapping, a particularly embarrassing moment from my past came up and i decided i wanted to clear it out. This type of energy seemed particularly stubborn. I worked on it for at least five inhalations and five exhalations. This was the first time i felt compelled to go beyond one breath cycle regarding a memory. I'm guessing this is just because there's a lot of layers to something like embarrassment? I mean... by its very nature embarrassment seems to carry a lot of resilient power. It has this ability to chain you to one moment as though it were still alive within you, no matter how much time has passed and no matter to…

I decided to directly recap a lot of trauma two days ago. I spent pretty much one whole 12 minute recap session focusing on trauma from childhood and adulthood bouts with psychosis. My friend had cautioned me against doing this kind of thing too soon, probably two or three years back. But I've been recapping daily for a long time and i reached a point where i was like... well my psychosis couldn't get much worse than it already is so i ought to try going directly after the really difficult memories. I had a huge breakthrough a few hours later. This may be in part due to the fact that i've been meditating a lot and eating better. So it's unclear what i was doing right. Now…

In our spirals I class we worked with a coin. Forgive me if I employ the wrong language but we were to channel our intent into it to practice what intent and conflicting intents and agreements and such feel like. When i first started working with the coin it didn't feel right. I was strictly spinning the coin and trying to intend that it lands on tails each time. This whole way of relating to it felt forced and it felt like i was really trying and exerting effort trying to break a law of nature. In the follow up class we spoke about how the coin has its own intent. On my trip to the library today i found a coin and i said to it like... you're my new coin. And natura…

I have a long history of having a mannequin in my house. She'll be 10 this year. I have my own name I gave her, but I believe there's more behind that. Allow me to explain: Everyone who has come into my house is instantly taken aback by how real she looks, but after 2 nights at my house, for at least the last 5 or 6 years, I find houseguests speaking to her. I believe that somehow in her being such a permanent fixture in my house that she has either 'developed' a soul, or acquired one. What I do know is what I've seen. I even have pictures of ex-girlfriends posing with her once they've gotten used to her. One ex of mine was afraid of her - one that was deemed …

I have been fortunate enough in this lifetime to get some really clear and good guidance from guides, not super regularly but often enough. However, my guides seldom to never make their identity clearly known. It always just feels like a message from on high. Of course... i would imagine that all guidance emanates from source which is apparently impersonal but on a different plane i'm sure that these guides do have unique personalities. So i am curious how to go about forming closer relationships with my guides. I would like to have a close connection for instance to a power animal. I have journeyed in the past and such. I feel hesitant to journey a bit because i've prob…

I'll be frank here to get to the meat of the subject: I'm blah blah and have been blah blah blah, back a very long time ago, and I think on many things less and less every day over the past twenty years. "Time has a way of taking time" ~ Megadeth. Good quote. What troubles me is a girl I was with last year, and I have no doubt that it will continue to come back on me, as if she's ever found competent to stand trial, I'll surely be called as a witness. I will exercise my Fifth Amendment right and stay silent. This post is about PTSD, and this is why: There is no real, general way to deal with it, and let's be honest - that's a righteous bitch. But it's true…

I don't know if there's a technique or teaching from the Maker tradition that can address this but i figure i may as well ask. I learn so much throughout some of my days. Then i go to sleep and i wake up and it's like a total reset. It feels like i've forgotten everything. I usually wake up like... ugh... i don't want to face the day. So it's hard to start my day off on the right foot. Any techniques or advice to deal with this?

I've been stalking for like... a year and a half or longer but i surely could still learn more about it. I'm imagining intent matters quite a bit here so what intentions can/should one set when stalking? How do you channel that intent into the practice? I'm familiar with the concept of stalking one's own self importance out of existence and also stalking one's own power... i guess to reclaim it? or materialize it? I find that interesting that the practice can be used to both recover something that is wanted and to get rid of something that is unwanted. Most of the time that i'm stalking it's pretty low key and based primarily around physical action. To me the physica…

Greetings to who ever reads this, I always have felt distanced in the modern society as there isn't a place for someone who doesn't seek status or materialism. Where can I find a mentor?, I will travel anywhere.

I am a 44 years old man, and I am experiencing a massive shamanic awakening in the last few weeks. Im reading books and listening to pods and audios about the topic. But this is not even close to whats going on. I need someone I could safely exchange some personal thoughts with. I want to confirm things and aask for further directions. Will appreciate to be contacted by an exeprienced person who has been into shamanism for a considerable amount of time and who feels a pull of intuition to reply to me with honest willingness to assist. Much appreciated it advance. DB

"Long is the way and hard, that out of Hell leads up to light." -John Milton (Disclaimer - There is no use of, either literal or implied, drugs or violent acts herewithin this story. This story is being shared in a safe space where we Shamans are not judged, and so I will not invade that with anything that may trigger anyone else. In addition, although I do not follow the same path as many here; some being healers, some dreamers, some seekers or makers, mine is my own. But who are we if not open minded? I speak with spirits and follow Northern traditions.) Two months ago I took a vacation from the desert here in Colorado to the Northwestern coast of Ca…