Hollows

There is a spirit I feel that targets me to make me feel restless. it seems like its very strong and present near urban environment and technology etc but not when I am out in nature away from those types of electrical fields. I tend to feel at rest if I am alone out in nature somewhere. However it doesn't seem like I am ever capable of feeling restful, relaxed or have bodily peace any other time. i have a lot of medical things that make it that certain outside stimulus can trigger pain or seizures. The weird thing is that it seems I am extremely unlucky where its like there is a constant string of things that dont allow me to rest. Like for example I can go to a park and finally feel restful for a brief second and then someone will come around with some kind of power tools (leaf blowers etc) to trigger me again. Even my family have recognized and made jokes of how unlucky I am. I feel like all of those events are too much to be a coincidence because it seems like its the stuff like that is non stop. Seriously, it seems like this kind of thing lines up to torment me and it has been ongoing for a few years now. Not allowed to have a full restful nights sleep because something will wake me up. Not being able to lie down to rest normally because a loud noise will trigger me again ( i have hyperacsuis and reflexive epilepsy.) Really hoping that anyone who can help me out through this process. talk through it. Maybe try to help me identify the problem. Its been so long like this and with other medical struggles its been really difficult to bear with. To whoever reading this, bless your soul