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@Nick "Living a life that is worth going through the pain of dying." The grief can show you things, a nugget of knowledge, when you feel ready maybe try this, go out in your garden and really set it free, move the energy of your sadness, move it into the word, into the trees, the ground, the rocks, let your awareness carry it out and touch everything in the world. Do that with all the will you can muster. I understand the joy, this movement can be quite joyful. Then in the empty space where the sadness was you will see something powerful just for you, probably even more gifts of knowledge that relationship created. C

Looking at the path intent takes is often fascinating, for example I am wondering if we would have any shootings if the 49ers had won the superbowl, probably not for what I can see. Would that be a good reason for them to win instead of the chiefs? Could be imo, and it's not a sport's reason. Everything is so interconnected all the time. We have to really look at the big picture. Yesterday before riding my bike to work I saw an issue with it, I had a flat tire the night before but the tire was fine that morning holding air well so I decided to give it a go but created an intent to get to work safely and on time. Then half way down the path I hit Valencia st. right before 16th and I get a flat, probably the same issue than the night before, I get my small pump put some air in the tire, it works but I can't get enough pressure, I am thinking it's the valve. So I walk the rest of the may manage to get to work on time. I talk about this with G at work and she mentioned a good bicycle shop on Valencia st. "Luckily" I get cancellations so now I have an hour and a half free. I get my bike there it was just a 5' walk. They do work first come first served not appointment, perfect! The guy I talk to diagnosed it the same, valve issue so we decide to change the tube. I wait 15' thinking it's done but he said my brakes needed adjustments. Do it as soon as possible. I am thinking "oh there is the real outcome..." I changed the pads but did not adjust the brakes properly a couple weeks ago. I told him to keep the bike until 5pm and do the adjustment. Now I have a very safe bike, the adjustment is perfect, much better than what I would have done. Intent often follows a bumpy road but it's never boring , it's a great family bicycle shop too I am happy I found it. C

Hi Infinity, I am glad to hear that you had a bit of a breakthrough. Understanding the recap as an energetic movement vs a mental exploration of your present and past is what makes all the difference in the end. Healing is an intent, your intent, and at first an intent to recover your personal energy. Think of it as finding home in yourself, a home that is not attached to anything around you. I know it sounds a bit drastic and lonely but in the end it is the best position to create healthy relationships with people and the world around you. So finding, building home in your energy is essentially a grounding movement by grounding I mean grounding what is not yours. When you practice the recap connect with the earth first, keep it simple, just feeling your feet on the ground or your seat, this should help you reach a calmer place to breath from. Then from that position start recapping your day and follow the memories and connections that come up, keep your head movement slow and relaxed. Do this with the intent to gather back your energy from those memories. When the breathing is difficult, if you can, notice what emotion(s) lies behind that difficulty and start recapping the emotion itself. In a way recap whatever presents itself when you do the practice, especially the emotions. We sometimes think recap does not work because the experience is a bit chaotic or at the opposite boring but by recapping those very experiences you can create some momentum and move into the energy of your memories. That movement is guided by your intent not your mind. As usual when things are too overwhelming take a break and come back at it later. It is a long term practice so find your own rhythm with it, I started recapping in 2007 and teaching it since 2015. I still do it everyday, it's been my companion practice and it will remain as such because it is my intent to do so. C

Hi Gary, I can answer on this forum but when I tried to submit a post on recap 3 forum I get an error message 403 Forbidden Access to this resource on the server is denied!

Also some great advice from Travellur. C https://www.shamanscave.com/blogs/entry/2022/08/how-to-be-a-shamans-cave-student

It simply helps you find the memories and memories associated with those memories, memories form a web and the compression put them closer to you so you can grab them and recap them. Without the compression especially at first it is much more difficult to create momentum in the recap process, the momentum of going from memory to memory. This momentum does not follow a logical order it is an energetic active process and often memories linked together seem to have not relations on the surface but they do in your energy. If your energy is not compressed your mind is more likely to rule the show and make the connections for you from memory to memory which is the last thing we want because then it becomes a mental process and has no effect whatsoever. I guess you still get to do a good breathing exercise so that must count for something.... C

Hi Nukemm, I think the maker approach to look at energy directly helps avoid common problems. By looking for the direct energy we take away the ability of the mind to misdirect us somewhere else. For example when I dream or see things and it is visually crowded with people, animals or even places I shift away from what I "see" and connect more with the emotions present so that's one layer down, then things change often the imagery disappears and I start to understand better. When your emotional body is speaking you can see where inside you it strikes (what emotion) and heal it if need be. You can also learn how to detach emotionally from it until that layer drops down and then you will see just energy moving, intent, will. The trick as usual is that you have to allow change for it to occur and the change is internal, to experience the universe as moving energy you have to learn to experience yourself as moving energy. So my take on it and this is just my opinion and not a judgment on my part, I am dealing with the same thing everyday, is that how we see reflects how we see ourselves. If you experience yourself as bone and flesh then stuff will be bony and fleshy out there. If you think you are all rainbow and light then bring some sunglasses... those in the end are just attempt from the mind to create a box. So the Makers in the end decided that the truth is much more useful and we constantly strip things to just experience the energy behind everything. Welcome to the cave. C