I did a journey with wind on Tuesday evening and it started with connecting with birds around, a crow I could sense especially, but other birds as well. It was as if bird activity increased around me.

My intent was to understand physical healing better especially physical pain in the body, how to heal it. I moved into the bones of the birds taking a journey inside them and noticed how wind energy is actually closely related to shapeshifting, or at least for me to use wind to shapeshift and then healing the pain from the bones first, shapeshift the bones themselves.

Birds are very interesting in that regards, their bone structure is very solid but very light and flexible too.

So I did some shapeshifting movements with my bones on Wednesday and Thursday, it was like I was in that energy for 48 hours. Thursday evening the grief came back, I had a long night sleep and waking up this morning was ready to work again, I used the grief from the workshop as a started and worked on the bones, rooting out the grief from the bones using recap.

It feels like my other wants new bones, or bones I have to make them and they cannot and will not hold that grief in its makeup, so it was a pretty ruthless recap, the wind energy in the recap was very efficient it showed me how through the energy of time and grief I am still connected to humanity.

We share things with humanity, the anger, the fears and joys, but for me it is more grief, so I have to transform that.

Earth is next probably Saturday evening.

C

Hi Christian,

that is extraordinary, because I had the experience you mentioned with wind and the birds on Wednesday right after you did your journey, as very physical and unsettling interactions. I recognized it as a manifestation of the Other, I worked with it in a way that taught me something new (instead of being overcome by fear, grief or other emotions it ended up being a spectacular learning experience) but I was not sure why it had shown up at that time in that particular way.

Secondly, I have been being pursued by a body of knowledge that already exists, containing exactly what you are talking about with bones and shape shifting. It would not leave me alone, and came up in my life in multiple contexts. Let me investigate and get back to you.

Are you sure you did not throw a little of your teaching intent in there?

Holly

On 5/29/2026 at 1:13 PM, cyfnos said:

We share things with humanity, the anger, the fears and joys, but for me it is more grief, so I have to transform that.

It's interesting to me that you mention grief, Christian. When we did the movement to connect with our Others, that was the first thing I felt, a wave of grief, it surprised me at the time but hearing that you experienced it too helps me realize that it was Big Grief. But the grief gave way, through a wind and a connection to clouds and sun (I guess all the elements and their respective emotions came into play) as I connected through my feet on the ground to the earth and then, a deeper understanding of myself, through my other. Do you think we need to transform that grief? There was a beauty to it. I felt something surprisingly gentle but yet powerful behind it. I'm also curious, why did you choose to do shapeshifting? What did you shapeshift to?

Thanks,

Lorrie

Christian,

Thank you for sharing this experience. It has me thinking about grief and healing grief, and how, perhaps, healing one's own grief may heal some grief in those we have connections with. I have my own, of course, but lately I've been surrounded by others also experiencing deep grief. For them, I've usually approached it by listening and being present, but perhaps I could do more by more self-healing of my own grief.

Thank you,

H

Shapeshift your bones into healthier ones to alleviate pain. I was surprised I saw that during the journey I was not thinking about shapeshifting but my intent/other lead me there. I think shapeshifting is under used in healing, I remember Gary mentioning that the shapeshifting movement has big implications in healing and I am just scratching the surface.

With the recap I went after the grief because it looked embedded in the bones, as you said it needs to be freed, I think I did a good job at it so far.

My intent for the WS was to find and root out obstacles to my other being active in the world. I was betting on fear but I guess I was wrong .

I had this dream last Monday were I am playing an old upright piano, and some part of it is broken so I am trying to fix it, the part is made of wood of course and sits above the keyboard protecting the hammers inside, as I tried to repair it it broke some more in two places so eventually I decided to let it go and play the instrument without repairing it. I tossed it aside.

It feels that way to me now I actually don't need it to be fixed, just let it go, the grief needs to go. So I will let the wind take it. I am talking about personal grief of course and that's the transformation I was talking about, it needs to become something else in my energy. I need to give the grief a new different shape. I can do that with the elements or the shapeshifting movement, since it is my energy I can shape it, building, working with the other feels a lot like that now, it's shapeshifting work.

I still have to move earth.

C

Hi all, I wanted to follow up on the thread about bones and shapeshifting.

I still have a lot more reading to do, so these are just preliminary thoughts, but I thought I’d share in case this sparks anything for anyone.

The concept I kept coming back to is tensegrity, a word combining “tension” and “integrity.” At first, I almost dismissed it because I knew Carlos Castaneda had used the term for his own school and practices, and his work has been heavily challenged by anthropologists.

What I found interesting is that Castaneda borrowed the term from a much broader architectural and engineering concept associated with Buckminster Fuller and structural design. In that context, tensegrity describes a system where rigid elements do not necessarily bear weight by stacking directly on one another. Instead, they are held in a dynamic relationship through continuous tension.

In the human body, our bones are not simply a rigid scaffold like beams in a building. They exist within a living web of fascia, connective tissue, muscle, and tension. In that sense, the body is held in tensegrity, a flexible, responsive, tension-based structure that is stronger than a rigid one.

I first encountered tensegrity in relation to energy healing, and that is where I am continuing to explore the implications energetically, especially in relation to bones, embodiment, flexibility, and transformation. Bones themselves, on a much smaller scale, embody tensegrity, because they grow over time, and have a certain amount of innate flexibility that may not be obvious at first.