ArcaneHuman

Thx. I'm unfamiliar with Shamanic voice. Is there an article on this? If so can you link me to it or describe it briefly here? It's frustrating because as much as I stalk... a lot of my patterns are still super ingrained and won't go away. These habits won't die. Like cigarettes for instance as a pertinent example. Am i really changing my patterns just because I stalk if i can't shift the bigger more persistent habits? If i'm becoming more fluid why are some of my habits so stubborn and crystallized/solidified?

Hi all. So I've been stalking on and off for like... 2 or 2.5 years. For me it's mostly a physical process so i'm wondering if i can use something like intent or anything else to get more out of my practice. I'll just describe what stalking looks like for me personally: There are times where i just change simple things like the route I use to walk to the store. But my primary method looks something like this: Snap my finger twice, make a gesture with my hand, tap on my refrigerator door three times, tap my foot, pick up a book, read one sentence, throw it across the room... etc etc. Just odd behaviors. I know it's an important practice for me but i barely know why i'm doing it. I know that i want to break out of imprisoning modes of thinking but beyond that I don't know what i'm trying to achieve. Like... what am I stalking after? Also perhaps noteworthy: While i'm doing it I often find myself repeating a particular action that puzzles me. I just kind of like... shrug my shoulders with my palms facing outward as though to say through body language " Meh..." or "Whatever." I have no idea why this is a repeating theme in my stalking, but i do know that it bares some signifigance.

I took your advice. This may have actually shifted things more quickly than i could have hoped for. The usual modus operandi of what i have come to call "the condemnation narrative" is that before it really escalates my thoughts start gradually shifting into a very particular mode of thinking, that isn't even particularly malevolent. When this mode kicks in I know the narrative is trying to clamp down. In this preemptive phase i usually feel optimistic, like i've got it beat this time! but then it just gradually wears me down to a completely vulnerable state. Then I start going on the defensive. So i recapped those moments today. Just before the psychosis Oddly enough the same night i did the recap of the edges i started shifting into that head space later in real life. And I did something that had never really occurred to me before. I started doing white magick and using my energy to actively make the world a better place. Instead of like... going on the defensive and using mantras or affirmations or whatever other strategies I usually implement. So hopefully this marks the beginning of an acceleration in my healing. I think this is important because the narrative proclaims that i am subconsciously a black magician so i started doing the white magick and i think it counters that. Then the following night (last night) the narrative started shifting me into that preemptive mode again. To wear me down and make me vulnerable. I tried to do white magick (like making my hands emanate white light, and picturing rainbow colored energy but i couldn't do it in that head space. so what i did was simply to pray for other people. May God bless such and such. May God bless whomever, may God bless her, him, the trees the rivers. Hopefully this strategy will continue to work because honestly i'm tired of being mentally crippled by fear. If anyone has additional advice i am all ears. thanks!

HI. One of the main things i've been seeking to heal in myself is recurring bouts of psychosis/ delusion/ feeling like i'm being condemned. These episodes recur approximately once every week or week and a half. It's a very disturbing and heavy experience. My friend told me that i should avoid recapitulating trauma until i'm really ready for it. I'm wondering though... if i avoid recapitulating the psychosis am I missing out on a return of energy that is essential to my being able to heal the psychosis? I know it's a really heavy and complicated energy to work with but i seem to have to endure it somewhat frequently anyway.

Hi. This post is bound to meander across several subjects. So when I journey I tend to envision myself as very very small. Like, the size of my thumb. And as one would in a third person video game. That's my "avatar" so to speak. It's not as simple as that but that's the essential essence. So I'm wondering if that's common. It lends to me a feeling of being immersed in a world larger than life. Yet there's also some degree of first person viewing at points. Like... I recently was trying to visit the upper world and there was a vine hanging down and it was covered in thorns. I just sat there until more vines appeared before me. So many vines. So many choices. Not just the ascetic/ masochistic path of climbing the thorn covered vine. Other ways to ascend. But i was seeing them as though I myself were standing before them... even though i was laying down. I feel like I need to journey for power objects right now and power animals. I have read that we are to visit the upper world for spirit animals. Also... instinct comes to mind. How well should we trust our instincts when we journey? I know from first hand experience that doing stupid things can have repercussions. Yet even with that learned understanding to respect the spiritual dimensions i still do things that are quite strange before i have a chance to even think about why i'm doing it. Like... I crossed this rope bridge to cross a great chasm between two cliffs and once i reached the other side i swiftly cut the bridge and it fell so i couldn't make it back by normal means. I had to zoom out into space and then return to the other side. I have no idea why i did that. Also... I really feel like i have to manifest a way of having a "tribe" In Real Life. This likely involves finances. And definitely healing my agoraphobia and social fears. My question is... has anyone tried to manifest a better life by linking up with other Real Life shaman's who have similar goals in the spiritual planes with the intention of meeting them in real life? Two things come to mind as important with this 1) How to tell if you're actually interacting energetically with a real person when you seek to contact people on higher planes and 2) Not crossing people's boundaries and setting your own boundaries. Like... I had a rather playful spiritual battle with someone once that might have just been imaginary but i felt like there was a real person on the other end of what was a very real energetic interchange. I felt like they were a gatekeeper and they were even training me perhaps. Or maybe they just wanted a spiritual playmate and were just playing around with me. I think it's okay to have fun and play but that night basically ended with me getting punched in the head because i was trying to stop an angry drunk from throwing his girlfriend around. lol. i had to ice my head but i was fine otherwise. Also lastly... how do we deal with being effectively blind to the spiritual elements of this world. as i do my healing it's almost like trying to unknot a complicated knot but i not only can't see the rope i can't even feel it. i wake up sometimes and there are beings everywhere in the room for a fleeting few seconds. Obviously they're always there but i can't see them. I fear being attacked by these things. how great of an advantage they must have. I've heard there are more with us than against us but it's hard.

I have been fortunate enough in this lifetime to get some really clear and good guidance from guides, not super regularly but often enough. However, my guides seldom to never make their identity clearly known. It always just feels like a message from on high. Of course... i would imagine that all guidance emanates from source which is apparently impersonal but on a different plane i'm sure that these guides do have unique personalities. So i am curious how to go about forming closer relationships with my guides. I would like to have a close connection for instance to a power animal. I have journeyed in the past and such. I feel hesitant to journey a bit because i've probably gone overboard with risky stuff in the past.... like... not quite respecting the power of the sea so to speak. I'm guessing i can also stalk such an aim... of becoming closer to my guides. But yeah... if i need to journey i will but i also would like some advice on how to properly do so. I usually just put on a shamanic drum track and i have some palo santo to burn before hand. thanks for reading.